Ode to the keys

So long, you've done your job.
Your service has ended.
You unlocked many a time the door to my haven,
freed me from the frustration of work,
guarded me from the terror of the night.
Your comforting clink
in the darkness will be sadly missed,
as well as your cool touch.
One
last
time
i turn you,
to set myself free of a home i once dwelled in...

Ultramagnetic countdown

(thanks to Kitty for the countdown!)

TEN things about me
10- I’m a sucker for romance.
9- I love geeky stuff.
8- I get tired of people who never keep their promises.
7- I enjoy coffee and conversations.
6- I smoke occasionally.
5- I’m stubborn, determined and at times, very OC.
4- I’m neurotic when i'm stressed.
3- I read tarot cards.
2- I am loopy most of the time.
1- I hate incomptetent know-it-alls.

NINE Places I've Visited in 'Pinas
9- Banawe
8- Cebu
7- Zambales
6- Baguio
5- Vigan
4- Boracay
3- Pangasinan
2- Capiz
1- Coron, Palawan

EIGHT Things I want to do before I die
8- get my name and work in one of those designer books
7- win an award
6- get paid a lot of money.
5- travel the world
4- get married
3- pay for my brothers' college education
2- repay my mom for everything she did for me
1- be with the one i love

SEVEN Ways to win my heart
7- be sweet.
6- be sincere.
5- be honest.
4- have a great sense of humor.
3- be decisive.
2- be smart.
1- love me for who i am, not for what i may be.

SIX Things I believe
6- Coffee is good for you.
5- Every person is inherently good.
4- mornings are overrated.
3- friendship is like love, it needs to be nurtured and sustained.
2- love has to have magic.
1- love takes effort from both people to make it work.

FIVE Things I'm afraid of
5- not being able to do my best.
4- disappointing (and failing) myself
3- Disappointing (and failing) others
2- that there is no inherent good in each person.
1- Knowing I could have done something to avoid anything bad happening.

FOUR of my Favorite Items in my bedroom:
4- fluffy pillows
3- my bed
2- my cellfone
1- my sweetie

THREE Things I do everyday
3- work, work, work
2- check email
1- learn (or try to learn) something new

TWO Things I am trying not to do right now:
2- let stress get to me
1- allow myself to get frustrated

ONE Person I want to see right now:
1- him.

Duality

As Psychicpants said,"There are only two types of Filipinos: one who leaves for the States, and the other who leaves for the States with a visa".

I'm just glad to be the latter.

best buds!

awww.... best buds!
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

Yesterday i met up with Zsa and Mitzy, to celebrate a belated birthday celebration. Zsa's actual birthday was last Friday, but due to schedule conflicts, we weren't able to meet up.

Anyhoo, this "ladies lunch" was a bit of a double-celeb, since i'm officially a bum starting this week, and my bosses at China Star gave me a wonderful surprise of gift certificates --- hence, a free meal not only to commemorate that, but also to have a great time with Zsa!

Our time was quite short since she was also meeting some more people (and Mitzy and i watched Madagascar) but i was reallyhappy to meet up with her since she's been so bogged down with her review (Law Bar is on September!).

Anyhoo, it was great to ctach up and chill with Zsa (we should do it again!!!) Reminds me of the good ole' days... naks! So Zsa, Happy Birthday again! mmwah! tc gurl, YOu Rock!!!

Gloomy bear meets Polo Bear

Gloomy bear meets Polo Bear
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

two of my fave bears enjoying a quiet time together!

i envy them. NOt a care in the world...

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rodent wars

The following paragraphs are a result of lack of sleep, great irritation of saidissue, and utter boredom. Please bear with me.

Since my last post, i have been tackling the issue of how to properly take out a mouse. Now, before you guys make some weird assumptions, let me make this clear:

I keep my house as CLEAN as i can. (Ask my roomies how OC i can get over this) Itis unfortunate, however, that we live in a location that has a humidity that transcends everything else, a tropical area which is a welcome area to all types of rodents and cockroaches, and yes, the ever-irritating system drilling of our Water company outside the gate.

My mouse encounters have happened before, with a lot of bad nedings. Out tried and tested flypeper traps have been gnawed at, giving trapped mice access to freedom when they become persisitent in their endeavor. Other mouse devices , like the traps, have been scoffed at, rarely touched. The chalk thing (which supposedly works for both mice and roaches) are merely scratches on the wall.

This all led me to re-examine the elements. The problem, i ultimately found out, was location. STrategic places where these creature usually tread should be the areas on which the flypapers should be situated. So hence, with all the moving i'm doing, i also re-situated my said traps. The results? Easy as pie, mouse in the house.

on to other things...

Sorry aboutthat. I catch myself slumping back into my depressed mode again... which is why i should really stop posting such crap online. Hence, i turn to better issues (?) like current movies, work-related rants and yes, encounters of the mouse species.

I think i've expounded my love for the conclusion of Star Wars' current trilogy a little too much, so i'll turn over to another much-awaited movie release: Batman Begins. I'm anticipating said movie for two main reasons:

On a purely physical interest, I am madly awaiting how much hotness Christian Bale can muster into this new movie with his portrayal of the "winged" hero. Not really a big fan of the leading lady (the Joey gal from Dawson's Creek??!? Are you FRIGGIN' kidding me!?!) but i do hope she won't destroy everything with her whining (the one thing she does best) and erratic acting.

Secondly, the movie is a welcome treat after those pathetic follow-ups (Batman movies after the Tim Burton ones). With an amazing trailer and a fantastic plot, hopefully, this will be a movie that will make up for those horrendous movies. Batman Begins makes me anticipate its opening day. Ooh, la-la!

Ok, back to catching that damn mouse who's been eluding me since this morning... ARGH!

take me away to paradise...

I keep reading and re-reading your mail. Often times i wonder how you are, and if like me, you miss me like crazy, so crazy you wind up staring into space for a long period of time. It sucks, this time apart. Then again, I hate the idea of regret for either of us, especially if it's about us...

Bartender, another whiskey sour please.

burning the midnight oil

Somehow the whole idea of change has kept me up --- from the worries about pending deadlines, moving day, even turnovers have kept me from sleeping soundly. I worry about these needlessly (after all, after i get out of my job, who cares, right?) and i think i'm going crazy.

My friend Noni thinks i'm crazy because i'm responsible. Shit, i'm beginning to think he's right -- i tend to go paranoid over stuff because i can't shake the idea off myself that it's my responsibility to know and be up to date with the changes happening. Like work, for example. The murals are technically not in the area of my responsibility, but since i know the supplier, i tend to think of protecting the supplier from any mistreatement they may get from the company, as well as try to not let the image of our company go to garbage.

*sigh*

Anyway, stuff like that keep me worrying more than i should and come to think of it, it's nobody's fault but mine, really. (nice, lette. haha) I just wish i can give myself a break without feeling guilty about it.

Lordy. i need a distraction. Bad.

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Last Song Syndrome playlist

WHITE FLAG
-Dido-
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

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Luv
-Travis-
What's so wrong
Why the face so long
Is it over?
And where you going that
you no longer belong here?
And distance tells you that
distance must come between love
Where have you been, Luv?
When the mistake we made
Was in never having planned to fall in love, Luv
Singing this song
Singing along
Makes it easier for me to see you go
But in doing so
In letting you go
It only serves to show me
that I'm still in love with you
Singing this song
Singing along
Makes it easier for me to see you go
But in doing so
It only serves to show me
that I'm still in love with you
So what's so wrong
Why the face?
So long!
Are you changing?
And where you been to that
you no longer remember?
And distance tells you that
distance must come between love
Where have you been, Luv?
It's just the chance we took
Having never ever planned to fall in love, Luv
It's just the chance we took
Having never ever planned to fall in love, Luv
It's just the chance we took
Having never ever planned to fall in love, Luv
Luv

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I Love You Anyways
-Travis-
You were on my mind
Inside the cinema
You looked so beautiful
I almost had to go
And when I got outside
I thought of you again
I think you should be framed
In some Fine Art gallery
I know you'd disagree with me
But I love you anyways
And should I climb high my
Dreary city walls
They make me feel so small
Oh let me fade away
This city's so cold & old
Forever rain or snow
I'd really love to come and go
Oh won't you go stay with me
I know you'd disagree with me
I just know you'd disagree
But I love you anyways
You were on my mind
Inside the cinema
You looked so beautiful
I almost dried an eye
And when I got outside
I caught the 44
It dropped me outside my front door
Forgot what I'd been living for

reconnecting

The past couple of days have been, quite hectic with both work and personal concerns. I catch myself crossing paths with people i haven't hung out in a long time, friends i've always wanted to chill out with again, even acquaintances whose amazing personalities leave me wanting more.

A "meet up coffee" with Jac and her bro Carlos at The Coffee Bean led me to an unexpected "catching up time" with Aileen and Edel. The time went by pretty fast, with us chatting about all sorts of girly stuff as well as a brief discussion on current faves. Granted, it was accidental, but we shared a couple of laughs as well as got updated on the latest Fullbright happenings ;-)

A "grub meet" with Noni turned out to be a record pizza dinner at Il Ponticello's (fast and yummy!) which was loaded with lotsa chikka, fun quips and yes, the ever-present, So what's new? query. Noni's fun character as well as his sweet side was ever present (too bad i had no extra ticket for Star Wars3 --- sayang! bwai ako!) which made the impromptu dinner at Valero an adventure of its own.

Star Wars with Mary and Jac got the whole "girl vibe" going, which led me to believe that friendship is something that just doesn't happen overnight, nor does it sustain without some effort. And believe me, with our schedules, it's GREAT that we put effort into meeting up, even for as petty as "some movie". Luv ya gurls!

Coffee at The Bean with Jac turned out to be a great discussion of "behavioral sciences", bridal details and the latest in Barbie. What can i say? My friend is perky, fun and yes, LOVES Pink with a passion. (Kinda like me, hehehe) She is one wonderful girl, who inspires me to just go for it (she's been through so many tough stuff that it's a wonder how she stays so perky inspite that). Some things too --- like Juna, for the nth time, gets my vote as her fiance. you rock,man!

A "stop-over meet" at Sonic's place turned out to be a techie-meets-nerd discussion on the fine details of Episode 3, Animal Planet and the wonders of FTP (thanks, jays! take care and get well soon!) I met his monkey (literally!!!) who was cute, sweet and shared his mango with us (he offered). As for Jays, it'sgreta to see him again! :-)

Finally, a quick bite at good ole' Ababu got me reconnecting with Anton, with relationship, opening a new business and pretty much just chillin'. Just like old times, huh? :-)

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I love how life gives us opportunities to cross paths with people, and interact with them. I love how our uniqueness makes it all the more interesting.

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darth vader --- sssshhhwing!!!

darth vader
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

I love Jollibee Kiddie Meal for this!

This movie which concludes the old (new) trilogy has made up for the not-so-hot previous ones. What can i say? Superlatives come to mind (arguable with some of my friends), but all i can say is this: it was worth the 11:30p.m. sked. :-)

Hot points:
- amazing battle scenes
- yes, Anakin DOES transform formidably into Darth, which is THE coolest!
- Hayden Christensen not only shows he's an actor, he's HOT!
- the plot seamlessly ties the first (new) trilogy with the second (old) one.

(ok, stopping now before i turn into complete geek mode)

Thanks and Kudos to MAry, Jac, Carlos and MArk for the righteous decision to watch this movie so early into its run! Also, gracias to Noni for a scrumptious
dinner prior to said showing (Ponti's is THE BEST!)

Sleeping mode incoming, so May the Force be with Us!

ayt!

the clap of thunder...

...was a welcome sound to me and most of the people in heat-stricken Manila. Precisely at 5:58 p.m.,the hard rain splattered over the hot cement and made Manila well--- cool again.

Today was extremely hot --- from the weather to the extreme frenzy of opening day. Yep, today was the opening of out Greenhills outlet, the first inthe still-being-constructed mall across the theatre mall. Oh joy. Getting there at 9ish inthe am just to put up posters, fix some outlet items and well, pretty much critique the area wasn't exactly my idea of fun, but it had to be done.

How exciting was my day? Follow that with some supplier trouble, mural revisions and an endless afternoon of assembling letters and coupons and you've got yourself a --well, ok,--- interesting day.

So coming back from my first meeting in Morato, i was welcomed back into the Greenhills area by the intense pour, literally pouring over me as i raced to shelter (i nearly skidded unto the newly-polished floors of the mall,but that's another story).

With the thunderous "storm", traffic almost instantaneously developed, as if vehicles were dehydrated and ballooned with the moisture. Yup, too traffic to go anywhere, too wet to move around, too broke to buy dinner (yup, only had money for cab fare). Plus, my supplier meeting got cancelled so i'm there with nothing to do but wait the rain out. *sigh* I even tried to see if anybody could meet up and spend the time hanging, but to no avail. Oh well...

Thankfully, the rain stopped soon, and wonder of wonders, i got myself a cab that didn't give me bullshit about going to QC inspite of the traffic. :-) Thank god for small miracles!

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Somehow this wasn't the way i envisioned spending my lat two weeks with the company. Hmm. I need to get more rest...

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If only i could turn back time

U.P. lang ang may TOKI, sa buhay wala nito.
Pero nasasaiyo na yon kung nais mong pabaligtad
ang takbo ng buhay mo."

- Prof. Ryan Cayabyab from Commencement speech given on April 24,2005 before the Class of 2005, UP Diliman, Quezon City

Thanks to Berger for posting this up.

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Bakit nga ba nakakalito minsan ang buhay? ha?!?

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Reminiscing about the past will not do you any good. It's about doing something in the present that will change your future that counts.

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I don't want to think of you as the one who got away, i'd rather think of you as the one who's on indefinite leave.

garage_sale!!!

garage_sale003
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

thanks for the folks who passed by and checked out (and bought!) the stuff.

The heat kept us from getting any new peeps to check the items during lunch and the afternoon, but lots more people came by by 3pm.

For those who missed out on it, we're scheduling another one sumtym soon (more stuff,books and other kitsch) so please come by.

beachin' in my dreams

coron_03
Originally uploaded by bunnie_lette.

GAWD, ANG INIT!!!!

sana nasa beachna lang ako ulit... *sigh*

Happy Bday Kitty and Juna!

Kudos to my galpal Kitty, who celebrates the big 2-5 today! :-)

Here's to a gazillion years of coffee and conversation, yosi breaks with Gudang Garams, chika galore and countless times of great friendship! Thanks for being such a great pal! :-) MMwah!

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Also extending my salutations to Juna, one of my best galpal's fiance. He is a guy who i know is THE best one suited for my galpal (naks!) He's sweet, caring and very fun to be with, not to mention smart and helluva conversationalist. Kudos and best of luck on your upcoming "transition"! You rock!

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Here we go again...

While the AFP tries to defend its recent expenditure, i raise my eyebrows. New infrastructure? Is it REALLY that beneficial?

Working in the area of Annapolis, i often come by the area which they are currently "renovating". I wonder how the officers who permitted this can ever justify that this will benefit everybody. The soldiers and other officers who will benefit it mainly will be those using the campgrounds on a daily and semi-daily basis. They can "jog better" and it's about time this thing is renovated anyway. However, the new article which questions, what about the Mindanao forces? brings back the argument of it being a benefit for all.

Would you rather give rice to those soldiers sacrficing their lives for the good of the country, or use it to renovate a slab of area on which limited soldiers can utilize?

Reading more about the current state of our armed forces in Time makes me all the more sadder. Our Armed Forces is not equipped with the proper sustainance, health benefits and weaponry that it should have. As far as corruption goes, i guess we are truly feeling the brunt of it from the past. How can we expect these people to defend us when we cannot even sustain them properly?

*sigh* Somebody tell these guys to rethink their priorities.

Happy Mom's Day!

i wish i can do something substantial enough to show you how much you mean to me.

You fed me, taught me, showed me the ropes --- you practically gave me life!

Thank you for being the best mom in the whole wide world! :-D

In this time of change, i see and feel the worries and dreams you have for me. I can only hope that i canmake you proud.

I love you MOM! :-)

GARAGE SALE moved to the 15th of May

GARAGE SALE at KAMUNING!!!

WHEN: Sunday, May 15, 2005
WHERE: 96 Kamuning Road, Quezon City

I'll be holding a garage sale with my friends at 96 Kamuning Rd., Quezon City (from EDSA, go through the strecth and it'll be on your left. From Morato, it'll be on your right) You won't miss us, we'll be by the street selling clothes, cds, books and what-have-yous. Interested parties may come in early to browse and buy through things.

Some of the items we'll be selling:

dvds for P35 - P45
vcds for P25 - P75
books for P50 - P200
(choice books include: Griffin and Sabine, Catcher in the Rye, Darwin Awards)
blouses and shirts for P25 and up
bags for P50 and up
shoes for P75 and up

See ya! :-)

"I think a change can do you good.."

...borrowing from the words of Sheryl Crow, change is a VERY big thing for me right now. So much is happening and i am just...overwhelmed.

I've resigned from my day job, started the sorting of my things, making plans of the move and yes, getting myself physically and psychologically psyched for my trip.

Yes, peeps, i am a-movin'. I've finally got my visa approval through and for about a couple of months, i will be seeing the other side of the world (yey!) Why resign? A difference of opinion? kinda. I don't really wanna think about work while i'm out of the country, so we decided i'm gonna be "on leave". permanently, or at least until i get back (It's nice to know that you have options)

Still back on the change subject, my mom and i decided to start off her "training consultancy", hence the family support and graohic work for her atop the usual workload. It's great to see her all excited about her "pet project" and kinda nice to be involved in the "family thing" again.

Now that i'm supposed to be "moving on", Taking time to meet up with friends and reconnect has become one of the top priorities i have for the next few weeks. It's great to hang out with old schoolmates, re-acquainted friends as well as just spend time to bask in all of the energy and bustle.*whew*

It's frightening.

I really hope i can get things done well, and fast.

Here's to another adventure...

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Advance Happy Mom's Day!!! Love you Momma! :-)

Garage Sale

GARAGE SALE at KAMUNING!!!

WHEN: Sunday, May 15, 2005
WHERE: 96 Kamuning Road, Quezon City

I'll be holding a garage sale with my friends at 96 Kamuning Rd., Quezon City (from EDSA, go through the strecth and it'll be on your left. From Morato, it'll be on your right) You won't miss us, we'll be by the street selling clothes, cds, books and what-have-yous. Interested parties may come in early to browse and buy through things.

Some of the items we'll be selling:

dvds for P35 - P45
vcds for P25 - P75
books for P50 - P200
(choice books include: Griffin and Sabine, Catcher in the Rye, Darwin Awards)
blouses and shirts for P25 and up
bags for P50 and up
shoes for P75 and up

See ya! :-)

karma chameleon

"...you come and go... you come and go, whoa-ho..."

Life is so full of surprising twists. Just when you thought you were done and over with something, the past comes back to haunt you. These days i am constantly reminded of certain things in my past, some of which may be better off not remembering. However, due to lack of emotional diversion, i find myself thinking of the what-ifs and could-bes of the situation, thus confusing myself even more and well, paint myself into a corner.

i try to not think of it as something open-ended, like the last time. After all, the new you is soo... different that i can hardly imagine myself talking to youthe same as before. Perhaps i crave the good ole days. Perhaps i seek refuge in something familiar, something that i can safely say, "home", in a sense.

Ah... i do not know anymore. The new turn in my life is leading me to more questions rather than answers. Do i miss you for who you are, or what you represent?

Argh.. My brain is begging me to stop tormeting myself.

Friendship manifesting Serenity

Had my tarot cards read tonight.

After a day of fixing things, moving things and endlessly sorting things, we finally got the first floor done. Next stop, second floor!

An evening with friends, new acquaintances and old buddies, proved to be a relaxing way to spend Sunday despite the hauling and cleaning in the house. Met up with Clang, Karl and the rest of the peyups peeps (happy birthday Tin!) at Teriyaki Boy for dinner and conversation, which quickly turned to a frenzy of laughter, jokes and a helluva fun time. Met up with Carla and Haydz afterwards to check out the festivities in Eastwood. It was a "mystical weekend" which meant tarot card readers,fortunetellers, etc., hence, the tarot reading.

In college i got fascinated by the world of tarot, even dabbling in it myself. I was attuned to the child cards, which was a deck that featured childrens' book characters instead of the kinda morbid ones found in the traditional deck. The person i talked to had, fortunately, a lovely deck which featureed angels and lovely illustrations.He gave me two readings, one from his angel deck, and a couple more from his tarot deck.

Interestingly, the cards seem to enunciate the events happening so quickly in my life. As much as i don't want to rely too much on his advice, it's pretty uplifting to know that everything has options within one's reach. As for other issues, it give me relaxation to realize that life is pretty darn good these days, and can only get better...

:-) Thank you!